Ending something beautiful, starting something New

As I sit here writing, I am in my single little dorm room for the last time this year.  Well really the last time ever as I will be living in a new room next year.  The entire dorm is empty except for the few exceptional students who move to summer housing tomorrow and I am the last RA left in charge for the night.  Pretty much all of my friends have either moved away for the summer or are home for a few days before returning to Tucson, so you could say its pretty lonely.  Despite my tiredness and inner insistence on being somewhat grumpy, I'm feeling pretty relaxed and looking forward to the idea of moving into a lovely house for the rest of the summer.  I also feel a little reflective.  It's been a long, crazy, speedy year and I've changed so much and learned even more.  Nearing my 21st birthday I am feeling legitimately like an adult and I remember my mother's words a few weeks ago when she saw me of "Wow.  You have really bloomed into a young woman."  Or something like that.  And its true.  Even though I still like acting silly and childish sometimes, I'm a full fledged adult.  It feels weird and kind of like I don't belong but wonderful at the same time.  This year I've learned to work really, really hard.  I've learned to balance huge amounts of responsibility and give myself time for fun too.  I've learned to be slightly more tolerant of those who aren't like me (still working on that one).  I've developed deep, Godly friendships and become much, much better at listening instead of talking.  And I've begun to understand what it means to be content with God's plan for my life.  That's definitely never an easy thing for me, but occasionally I feel like I am getting it just the tiniest bit.  Because every time I think I know what I want, He corrects me and shows me something better.  Ending this year is bittersweet.  I am looking forward to a relaxing summer, but also really looking forward to starting again in the Fall with new challenges and the same amazing people.  Right now, I really really love this blessed life that I have.

My CRU Family :)