Sitting at a desk in my hotel room - which I just checked into myself - I feel the need to reflect on being an adult as I have seemed to feel quite the weight of it as of late.
I thought that I wanted to be an adult; in reality, I still do of course. But this summer I have realized a lot of little things that come with being an adult that I always thought I was prepared for, but am really not. Things like cleaning the house and cooking are more foreign to me that I would ever have thought! I mean, I always said I knew how to clean and cook, but the simplest things like putting the wipe on the swiffer mop and separating chicken from the package baffle me! Luckily and unluckily for me, my roommates seem naturally skilled in each of these areas and I often find myself looking up from my very simple dinner (that I am totally content with) to see them creating some gourmet concoction. (disclaimer: I'm still deciding if the cleaning part is because I'm not enough of an adult yet or if I really was snobbier and more spoiled than I thought in Kingman). Regardless, if I have such a hard time with the small common sense tasks of renting a room for the summer, it is going to take a lot of work before I'm ready to have my own home!
Another thing that I'm realizing is more overwhelming than I assumed are things like insurance and signing leases and bills. Am I really old enough to be dealing with this stuff? The answer is yes, yes I am.
Which is why I am thankful for these new realizations. In my position at the dorms, I definitely feel like the the elder, mature, collected person. But put me in more "real life" scenarios, and I am not so prepared. And yet, being almost 21, I probably should be. Or at least getting closer to be. So now, even though it seems a little overwhelming and at times I wish I could just be a little kid again with no worries at all, I am going to do my best to handle my life by myself, because really, I'm not a little kid anymore.
PS - in case you were wondering - my hotel room is big and pretty and has a huge bed! So crazy....
Welcome to "Life Skills" 101. These are as important or more important than all your accomplishments in college. I think we are in this class all our lives. I know I'm still in it and don't ever expect to be out of it.
ReplyDeleteWelcome to the real world. You are entering slow and easy and after having had a lot good examples to draw on. Family can always be a good resource for questions. Even Dawn still calls once in a while with a question, some I can answer.
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